sharin' the love
i love my blog. especially with you interactive readers.
it is like this cool diary that talks back...
July 31, 2008
July 28, 2008
mr busy (aka mr. big) is back
i don't remember particuarly what mr. big does on SATC, not watching it more than once, but i'm gonna rename mr. busy mr. big.
he's my ex from last year, of the much angst & craziness. on my part.
only met up once, but we continue to text & talk on the phone. no evidence of craziness from me, so i think he's venturing closer.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. would be nice.
regardless, my self-respect is now again firmly in tact & i resolve never to decay into state i was in with him at the end! nice to be able to write-over...
i don't remember particuarly what mr. big does on SATC, not watching it more than once, but i'm gonna rename mr. busy mr. big.
he's my ex from last year, of the much angst & craziness. on my part.
only met up once, but we continue to text & talk on the phone. no evidence of craziness from me, so i think he's venturing closer.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. would be nice.
regardless, my self-respect is now again firmly in tact & i resolve never to decay into state i was in with him at the end! nice to be able to write-over...
July 25, 2008
mean what i say, not say what i mean
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: are you ok? [deeply concerned]
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: [thinks]
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: yeah, clearly you're not. but what else is there to say?
friend: [choking. coughing. laughing.]
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news headline: Woman Dies Laughing When Asked If Ok
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: are you ok? [deeply concerned]
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: [thinks]
friend: [choking. coughing]
me: yeah, clearly you're not. but what else is there to say?
friend: [choking. coughing. laughing.]
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news headline: Woman Dies Laughing When Asked If Ok
July 24, 2008
men r gr8 - #2
ok, another sample of good stuff from the conference that really hit home with me. (see this conference wasn't about rah rah men, it was about making sense of them. so all the stuff was very logically explained. nice.)
so we bang on men for being so logical & not emotional. but really, they are emotional. they just have this filter first.
women: feel --> act
men: feel --> think --> act
they also make decisions based on facts. not feelings.
i can't tell you how many sucky relationships this fact has saved me from. i just reviewed them lately in my mind & it goes something like this. it never went like this verbally - just in what happened. now i get it!
me (feelings): i'm emotionally attached to you. so i'd like a relationship with you. because even though some things don't work, i don't want to leave!
him (thinking): we're not getting along very well. why would we get further into a relationship?
this fact was driven home by my ex who came to visit wanting me to marry him. this is after we're already getting into arguments after only being together 2 days. and how would this marraige work out exactly?
now that i understand that men do feel, but they don't act on those feelings - but on facts & logic - it makes perfect sense.
ok, another sample of good stuff from the conference that really hit home with me. (see this conference wasn't about rah rah men, it was about making sense of them. so all the stuff was very logically explained. nice.)
so we bang on men for being so logical & not emotional. but really, they are emotional. they just have this filter first.
women: feel --> act
men: feel --> think --> act
they also make decisions based on facts. not feelings.
i can't tell you how many sucky relationships this fact has saved me from. i just reviewed them lately in my mind & it goes something like this. it never went like this verbally - just in what happened. now i get it!
me (feelings): i'm emotionally attached to you. so i'd like a relationship with you. because even though some things don't work, i don't want to leave!
him (thinking): we're not getting along very well. why would we get further into a relationship?
this fact was driven home by my ex who came to visit wanting me to marry him. this is after we're already getting into arguments after only being together 2 days. and how would this marraige work out exactly?
now that i understand that men do feel, but they don't act on those feelings - but on facts & logic - it makes perfect sense.
July 23, 2008
understanding men conference overview - #1
ok, i am starting on trying to download how much this event meant to me. (it is the conference titled "celebrating men, satisfying women" put on by pax international. you can find more at understandmen.com. i am not affiliated with this event or firm in any way, any comments i have are strictly my own interpretation.)
let me start really simply with the main premise of the entire conference:
MEN ARE AWESOME!
this was a conference designed to translate how men think & act. and let me tell you girls - MEN MAKE SENSE!
at the end of a 2-day conference there was a panel of (unprepped) men. and through the new filter of "men are awesome" - they were. all of a sudden, they made sense! they answered questions asked by all of us, and let me tell you, there was hardly a dry eye in the room. the relief, the understanding, the ability to see that men really want to understand us as much as we want to understand them, was just amazing. in fact, one of the men said, "i never knew you didn't understand us!" more than that - they want to make us happy! they just don't always understand how. and we don't see their efforts.
i can't tell you what a relief it was just to realize that men are good.
everywhere you read (and sometimes experience), you hear or see things happen that tell you MEN SUCK. take a look. most authors, including myself, filter all observations and commentary through this process. (which makes for good reading and bonding between women.) what it does NOT do, is facilitate communication in relationships and foster sharing of understanding.
the main takeaway i got from this event was that MEN ARE AWESOME and MEN MAKE SENSE. you will hear me incorporating this new view into my blog...i don't wish to hate or be angry at men any longer. and thank goodness, i finally attended an event that was designed to lead me in this direction, instead of staying in MEN SUCK quicksand that most of us (feminist-raised) females have been mired in.
more to come...
ok, i am starting on trying to download how much this event meant to me. (it is the conference titled "celebrating men, satisfying women" put on by pax international. you can find more at understandmen.com. i am not affiliated with this event or firm in any way, any comments i have are strictly my own interpretation.)
let me start really simply with the main premise of the entire conference:
MEN ARE AWESOME!
this was a conference designed to translate how men think & act. and let me tell you girls - MEN MAKE SENSE!
at the end of a 2-day conference there was a panel of (unprepped) men. and through the new filter of "men are awesome" - they were. all of a sudden, they made sense! they answered questions asked by all of us, and let me tell you, there was hardly a dry eye in the room. the relief, the understanding, the ability to see that men really want to understand us as much as we want to understand them, was just amazing. in fact, one of the men said, "i never knew you didn't understand us!" more than that - they want to make us happy! they just don't always understand how. and we don't see their efforts.
i can't tell you what a relief it was just to realize that men are good.
everywhere you read (and sometimes experience), you hear or see things happen that tell you MEN SUCK. take a look. most authors, including myself, filter all observations and commentary through this process. (which makes for good reading and bonding between women.) what it does NOT do, is facilitate communication in relationships and foster sharing of understanding.
the main takeaway i got from this event was that MEN ARE AWESOME and MEN MAKE SENSE. you will hear me incorporating this new view into my blog...i don't wish to hate or be angry at men any longer. and thank goodness, i finally attended an event that was designed to lead me in this direction, instead of staying in MEN SUCK quicksand that most of us (feminist-raised) females have been mired in.
more to come...
July 22, 2008
free your mind...
the value of freeing my mind is already showing up!
i see now why it is best to let guys go & move on if they're not that into me. benefit = i now have emotional energy for other guys!
mr. busy is back in my life again, to some extent. just as a refresher, he was my BF from last year that i was gaga over. mr. possibility is also back.
the good thing about these guys is that no matter what happens, i have a chance to show off the new me, free of static cling. that was the main thing that killed my r-ship with them...so to be cling-free is a big benefit!
that also means, that if nothing really happens with them, everything will be ok. after all, i'd hate for them to distract me & take emotional energy that could be spent on NEW guys.
i've come a long way baby & i hope that i can show that off now...
the value of freeing my mind is already showing up!
i see now why it is best to let guys go & move on if they're not that into me. benefit = i now have emotional energy for other guys!
mr. busy is back in my life again, to some extent. just as a refresher, he was my BF from last year that i was gaga over. mr. possibility is also back.
the good thing about these guys is that no matter what happens, i have a chance to show off the new me, free of static cling. that was the main thing that killed my r-ship with them...so to be cling-free is a big benefit!
that also means, that if nothing really happens with them, everything will be ok. after all, i'd hate for them to distract me & take emotional energy that could be spent on NEW guys.
i've come a long way baby & i hope that i can show that off now...
July 21, 2008
enigma variations
my friend jack (mr. jack is back, or not just jack as i like to call him) told me recently that i talk about relationships a lot. that pissed me off so i didn't talk to him for a while.
he's right though. i do! and today i finally realized why.
men are an enigma to me. relationships. it's like this big mystery i'm working on, like theory of relativity. in fact, it's my own TOR! it's all relative - to something, lol.
i also realized, walking down the street today in the sun, yea!!!! that i spend a LOT of thought, time & emotional energy thinking about what people 1) have done, 2) are doing, and 3) will do in the future. what if i spent all that time thinking about --- something else!
what a thought. wow. revolutioninzing. or whatever that word is.
what would i think about if i didn't do that?
it's so pointless though really. now that i am no longer (generally) afraid (though i might still get that way specifically...) there is no need to try to prepare for every eventuality. in fact - people themselves don't know what they are going to do in the future! so why spend time trying to figure it out?
ah. freedom. deep cleansing breaths. relief.
the battle of the sexes is over. we can both win. and in the meantime - i can just sip coffee & put my feet up & enjoy life.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
my friend jack (mr. jack is back, or not just jack as i like to call him) told me recently that i talk about relationships a lot. that pissed me off so i didn't talk to him for a while.
he's right though. i do! and today i finally realized why.
men are an enigma to me. relationships. it's like this big mystery i'm working on, like theory of relativity. in fact, it's my own TOR! it's all relative - to something, lol.
i also realized, walking down the street today in the sun, yea!!!! that i spend a LOT of thought, time & emotional energy thinking about what people 1) have done, 2) are doing, and 3) will do in the future. what if i spent all that time thinking about --- something else!
what a thought. wow. revolutioninzing. or whatever that word is.
what would i think about if i didn't do that?
it's so pointless though really. now that i am no longer (generally) afraid (though i might still get that way specifically...) there is no need to try to prepare for every eventuality. in fact - people themselves don't know what they are going to do in the future! so why spend time trying to figure it out?
ah. freedom. deep cleansing breaths. relief.
the battle of the sexes is over. we can both win. and in the meantime - i can just sip coffee & put my feet up & enjoy life.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
July 11, 2008
off to see the wizard
i'm off to this conference in NY on understanding men. actually, celebrating men, satisfying women, alison armstrong's conference.
scared. sad.
kitty biting me, lost potential boyfriend, feel very alone & sad.
just so damn lonely being single. or rather - living in the NEast & being single.
when your man doesn't want you (or rather, anything more than your body) and your kitty bites you, it's hard to feel the love.
oh well, at least i'll be with my fav cousins at the conference that i NEVER see...
happy weekend singletons
blah.
humbug.
:(
i'm off to this conference in NY on understanding men. actually, celebrating men, satisfying women, alison armstrong's conference.
scared. sad.
kitty biting me, lost potential boyfriend, feel very alone & sad.
just so damn lonely being single. or rather - living in the NEast & being single.
when your man doesn't want you (or rather, anything more than your body) and your kitty bites you, it's hard to feel the love.
oh well, at least i'll be with my fav cousins at the conference that i NEVER see...
happy weekend singletons
blah.
humbug.
:(
July 10, 2008
pets r us
today i realized why god made pets.
when i was petting my cat last night i thought, skertzo loves me. or at least interacts with me in a purry manner. he won't get huffy with me & play mind games. he's pretty easy maintenance. i can pet him & hug him without any repurcussions, other than a bitten hand, lol.
and this is why god made small furry animals.
so we can love with abandon.
today i realized why god made pets.
when i was petting my cat last night i thought, skertzo loves me. or at least interacts with me in a purry manner. he won't get huffy with me & play mind games. he's pretty easy maintenance. i can pet him & hug him without any repurcussions, other than a bitten hand, lol.
and this is why god made small furry animals.
so we can love with abandon.
July 08, 2008
stupid is as stupid says
not along the dating theme (generally against my rules to write anything but dating stuff here...) but along the smart theme...
i am being quoted in the associated press, just got off the phone with a reporter. this is after being (recently) quoted in the WSJ, business week, etc. part of the perks of the job.
so stupid i are not!
not along the dating theme (generally against my rules to write anything but dating stuff here...) but along the smart theme...
i am being quoted in the associated press, just got off the phone with a reporter. this is after being (recently) quoted in the WSJ, business week, etc. part of the perks of the job.
so stupid i are not!
sex & the truckers
i'm not even gonna lie. i love it when guys whistle at me.
today i was walking to work & i heard this trucker honk. i look over to see whassup & he waves. i wave back. little wave.
about 30 seconds & 3 cars later, i hear another honk. it's another trucker from the same company who apparently has seen me wave at the first truck. i look back. he leans way out of the truck, gives me a best crest smile & waves enthusiastically.
by now i'm laughing & wave back. big wave.
gotta love truckers.
i'm not even gonna lie. i love it when guys whistle at me.
today i was walking to work & i heard this trucker honk. i look over to see whassup & he waves. i wave back. little wave.
about 30 seconds & 3 cars later, i hear another honk. it's another trucker from the same company who apparently has seen me wave at the first truck. i look back. he leans way out of the truck, gives me a best crest smile & waves enthusiastically.
by now i'm laughing & wave back. big wave.
gotta love truckers.