well i sure do pick em
new guy isn't. he's over. he is so bitter at women that it is shocking.
i didn't realize it, but it is so. and it was a no-win situation with him.
i won't talk about it now but i'm just ugh.
mr. NY is just amazing. he just told me the sweetest thing ever. i will write it later.
August 14, 2009
August 12, 2009
August 10, 2009
OMFG
new guy just told me he doesn't want another kid. over text. not a text aimed at that, but that's what the content was.
i don't know what to do with that information. needless to say, there go my dreams of kid out the window. kid with him.
i don't even know what i want but i was hoping. i asked him if there is anything else he doesn't want to do again that i need to know.
read: get married.
waiting to hear.
what to do.
new guy just told me he doesn't want another kid. over text. not a text aimed at that, but that's what the content was.
i don't know what to do with that information. needless to say, there go my dreams of kid out the window. kid with him.
i don't even know what i want but i was hoping. i asked him if there is anything else he doesn't want to do again that i need to know.
read: get married.
waiting to hear.
what to do.
being ignored
i'm pondering my reaction to this. new guy tends to ignore things occasionally, last night it was a sexy text i sent. he might not have gotten it, but it is so opposite of mr. NY.
i just can't deal. the anxiety rush is huge and i am just not up for that.
was walking around "looking" at this feeling i had. trying to figure out how it worked. a good step. but ultimately there are deal-breakers, and this is one of them.
oddly enough, it also makes me want the guy more, but i am not going to let that happen. i am just plainly stating what i want from him, no games, and if he's not up for it, let's just move on.
i'm pondering my reaction to this. new guy tends to ignore things occasionally, last night it was a sexy text i sent. he might not have gotten it, but it is so opposite of mr. NY.
i just can't deal. the anxiety rush is huge and i am just not up for that.
was walking around "looking" at this feeling i had. trying to figure out how it worked. a good step. but ultimately there are deal-breakers, and this is one of them.
oddly enough, it also makes me want the guy more, but i am not going to let that happen. i am just plainly stating what i want from him, no games, and if he's not up for it, let's just move on.
August 07, 2009
cathousebroke
kitten seems to be adjusting to his new tenure indoors. at the moment he's playing with catnip mouse madly as i type. sweet. play away.
i've had to schedule time each day to entertain him, as he is a very high maintenance kitty. he needs to be kept active and in lieu of the great outdoors, it is the great me that now needs to make sure he doesn't get bored.
because bored leads to whiney & bitey & nah, we can't have that.
so fingers crossed kitten will just forget all about what is out there and love the great person who is me and enjoy eating and playing & watching birds & doing all the things that indoor kitties do.
kitten seems to be adjusting to his new tenure indoors. at the moment he's playing with catnip mouse madly as i type. sweet. play away.
i've had to schedule time each day to entertain him, as he is a very high maintenance kitty. he needs to be kept active and in lieu of the great outdoors, it is the great me that now needs to make sure he doesn't get bored.
because bored leads to whiney & bitey & nah, we can't have that.
so fingers crossed kitten will just forget all about what is out there and love the great person who is me and enjoy eating and playing & watching birds & doing all the things that indoor kitties do.
August 05, 2009
therapy
so i was going to see a therapist. awesome, i thought. all my friends will be happy. and my dates, lol.
she seemed nice. convenient.
and then i got the cancellation policy. $130 if i forget an appointment. WTF? or reschedule. not required if i schedule within the same week. well, what if i can't reschedule?
i told her i'd think about it. nothing in my life costs me $130 if i forget it...
so i was going to see a therapist. awesome, i thought. all my friends will be happy. and my dates, lol.
she seemed nice. convenient.
and then i got the cancellation policy. $130 if i forget an appointment. WTF? or reschedule. not required if i schedule within the same week. well, what if i can't reschedule?
i told her i'd think about it. nothing in my life costs me $130 if i forget it...
cat-undrum
well, catty went out & got ouchie on his leg. "of unidentified origin." and yours truly let his shots expire. by what, 5 weeks. so now he is "at risk" for rabies and under house quarantine.
honestly i'm not sure he'll make it. if he doesn't i'll have to have him put down. that is everyone else's opinion. but makes sense. by make it, i mean survive being indoors. the other stuff i'm not so worried about & neither did the vet seem to be, but IT IS THE LAW.
lawful are we.
also wanting to try to remake him as house cat. right.
so i picked up some catnip which my (now not sure) new guy recommended & a laser tag playtoy that the vet recommended. he is in love with the laser. just in love.
he's so smart he soon figured out he could anticipate it. then he realized he could control where it went - by just not following (upstairs again? nah). then he determined his favorite place to play is the couch. after that, he started trying to find the correlation between the light & the little thing in my hand.
but still he remains entertained.
last night i made a complete laser show for him, tracing circles around him, the wall. we are both entertained.
so he's eating, sleeping & playing more. but happier? not sure. def not more affectionate. but heck, he is company now...not being gone for 2 days at a time.
we'll see how kitty makes it 5 long months. or how moi does.
well, catty went out & got ouchie on his leg. "of unidentified origin." and yours truly let his shots expire. by what, 5 weeks. so now he is "at risk" for rabies and under house quarantine.
honestly i'm not sure he'll make it. if he doesn't i'll have to have him put down. that is everyone else's opinion. but makes sense. by make it, i mean survive being indoors. the other stuff i'm not so worried about & neither did the vet seem to be, but IT IS THE LAW.
lawful are we.
also wanting to try to remake him as house cat. right.
so i picked up some catnip which my (now not sure) new guy recommended & a laser tag playtoy that the vet recommended. he is in love with the laser. just in love.
he's so smart he soon figured out he could anticipate it. then he realized he could control where it went - by just not following (upstairs again? nah). then he determined his favorite place to play is the couch. after that, he started trying to find the correlation between the light & the little thing in my hand.
but still he remains entertained.
last night i made a complete laser show for him, tracing circles around him, the wall. we are both entertained.
so he's eating, sleeping & playing more. but happier? not sure. def not more affectionate. but heck, he is company now...not being gone for 2 days at a time.
we'll see how kitty makes it 5 long months. or how moi does.
August 02, 2009
new guy IS
well, seems i might actually HAVE a new guy. i went to hear him play this weekend & he is an impressive musician. i mean great musician AND performer. his band rocked and really engaged the crowd, meaning all ages. they are a party band & they really were good at it. did i say i was impressed yet?
met one of new guy's crazy ex girlfriends. he calls them the 3 sopranos. the third one is such a b* that this is what she did. so we're standing around in line for beers & he sees her. they start talking & i have no idea who she is, but immediately note she is absolutely gorgeous. like model type. i kind of stand back & give them room to talk, as is the guy she is with, who is looking rather pissed.
new guy introduces me to her & her to me. then i hear her talking something about there is this girl that wants to come hear him play. i'm like WTF but i pretend i can't hear b/c of the other band playing. so we walk away & he tells me who it is. i'm like, did she just talk about other women that want you in front of me? he was like yea, she's trying to cause trouble. she was asking who you are. yes. i was 3 feet away.
he tells me there's a reason why she's and ex and it is clear to me what one of those is. she has just broken every girl & guy code there is.
of course i don't think he handled the situation that great either, but in any case, goes to show what kinda balls she has to talk like that with me right there.
so i'm under the assumption that if i want this to work, it might. i think i do. i saw a lot of stuff that i liked about new guy this weekend, not the least of which was he is a good musician. gotta have some real respect for that. secondly, he seems nice, normal & very sweet.
hmmm...!
in other news, i changed all the curtains in my house today, put on a new futon cover & am redecorating. bah humbug. tired of things the way they are...
well, seems i might actually HAVE a new guy. i went to hear him play this weekend & he is an impressive musician. i mean great musician AND performer. his band rocked and really engaged the crowd, meaning all ages. they are a party band & they really were good at it. did i say i was impressed yet?
met one of new guy's crazy ex girlfriends. he calls them the 3 sopranos. the third one is such a b* that this is what she did. so we're standing around in line for beers & he sees her. they start talking & i have no idea who she is, but immediately note she is absolutely gorgeous. like model type. i kind of stand back & give them room to talk, as is the guy she is with, who is looking rather pissed.
new guy introduces me to her & her to me. then i hear her talking something about there is this girl that wants to come hear him play. i'm like WTF but i pretend i can't hear b/c of the other band playing. so we walk away & he tells me who it is. i'm like, did she just talk about other women that want you in front of me? he was like yea, she's trying to cause trouble. she was asking who you are. yes. i was 3 feet away.
he tells me there's a reason why she's and ex and it is clear to me what one of those is. she has just broken every girl & guy code there is.
of course i don't think he handled the situation that great either, but in any case, goes to show what kinda balls she has to talk like that with me right there.
so i'm under the assumption that if i want this to work, it might. i think i do. i saw a lot of stuff that i liked about new guy this weekend, not the least of which was he is a good musician. gotta have some real respect for that. secondly, he seems nice, normal & very sweet.
hmmm...!
in other news, i changed all the curtains in my house today, put on a new futon cover & am redecorating. bah humbug. tired of things the way they are...
July 31, 2009
kitty news!
yea, request for kitty news. kitty came back! any little fool could see, he was crazy, to just run off without me! ;)
so after 2 nights he came running across the neighbor's lawn meowing full force & headed straight for his food dish. he ended up with a spot of something on his leg, which he had licked clean so it looked all yucky. i scheduled a vet appt but then it seems to be healing, so i'll just take him for kitty shots instead & if the nurse gasps, sign up for the doc. save about $100 that way.
he's been indoors since his last escapade. sleeping like a loggy. well, that is, when he's not meowing to go out. but no go until his leg gets ok from the pros.
i guess i'll have to resign myself to a life of kittys & men that come & go at will & without warning...
new guy seems to be somewhat like i am, unsure. but he's not asking me out so i've been seeing where that stands. we tried to get together yesterday at my request but the option was to follow him to a hotrod street car show at foxboro stadium & the traffic that way is ugh. i already went by the stadium yesterday anyway to a client meeting so not fun. today i asked him about my friend's band playing tonite (remember the bitchy bachlorette? her now-husband used to play in it) so we'll see what excuses he makes. if any, i am done asking to see him.
in the meantime, mr. NY is in the picture again so i have company as i fight my baby angst again. urgh.
having a very hard time accepting the decisions i've either made or NOT made in life. much anxiety lately & nowhere to turn. oh yes, i can turn my head to hear kitty meow. the birds are calling him & he can't come out & play.
darn it.
lucky birds.
yea, request for kitty news. kitty came back! any little fool could see, he was crazy, to just run off without me! ;)
so after 2 nights he came running across the neighbor's lawn meowing full force & headed straight for his food dish. he ended up with a spot of something on his leg, which he had licked clean so it looked all yucky. i scheduled a vet appt but then it seems to be healing, so i'll just take him for kitty shots instead & if the nurse gasps, sign up for the doc. save about $100 that way.
he's been indoors since his last escapade. sleeping like a loggy. well, that is, when he's not meowing to go out. but no go until his leg gets ok from the pros.
i guess i'll have to resign myself to a life of kittys & men that come & go at will & without warning...
new guy seems to be somewhat like i am, unsure. but he's not asking me out so i've been seeing where that stands. we tried to get together yesterday at my request but the option was to follow him to a hotrod street car show at foxboro stadium & the traffic that way is ugh. i already went by the stadium yesterday anyway to a client meeting so not fun. today i asked him about my friend's band playing tonite (remember the bitchy bachlorette? her now-husband used to play in it) so we'll see what excuses he makes. if any, i am done asking to see him.
in the meantime, mr. NY is in the picture again so i have company as i fight my baby angst again. urgh.
having a very hard time accepting the decisions i've either made or NOT made in life. much anxiety lately & nowhere to turn. oh yes, i can turn my head to hear kitty meow. the birds are calling him & he can't come out & play.
darn it.
lucky birds.
July 26, 2009
grr
well, my kitten for company - wasn't. he's gone. 2 nights now. i'm worried he won't come back. i imagined last night (or heard) him yowing when i called for him, so today i did a short walk of the houses & didn't hear him b/c the wind was blowing. i figure later today if he doesn't show up i'll go look in all the windows of the houses around b/c that's where he'll be if he can be.
i really hope somebody didn't take him. i need to call the girl that said he visits sometimes. hopefully she's not feeling bad for locking him in & then trying to make friends with me. ooh i think evil things of people. i will call her this p.m. if he doesn't show up.
otherwise what do you do. he wanted to be an outdoor cat, not much i can do.
sad. new guy was playing a gig last night so i spent the evening alone. no kitty either. waaah.
well, my kitten for company - wasn't. he's gone. 2 nights now. i'm worried he won't come back. i imagined last night (or heard) him yowing when i called for him, so today i did a short walk of the houses & didn't hear him b/c the wind was blowing. i figure later today if he doesn't show up i'll go look in all the windows of the houses around b/c that's where he'll be if he can be.
i really hope somebody didn't take him. i need to call the girl that said he visits sometimes. hopefully she's not feeling bad for locking him in & then trying to make friends with me. ooh i think evil things of people. i will call her this p.m. if he doesn't show up.
otherwise what do you do. he wanted to be an outdoor cat, not much i can do.
sad. new guy was playing a gig last night so i spent the evening alone. no kitty either. waaah.