identity crisis
wow, it's wierd to be single again. it took me months to just feel like i was part of a couple, now that's gone and i'm single again.
apparently i have a weak identity in the first place, something i need to work on. but now here i am back in single land (with all its perks, not that i'm complaining ;) but going wow,
here i am.
seeing single again.
with the one benefit of that -- no more double vision. ;)
October 21, 2006
October 17, 2006
World's worst pickup lines
So I'm on match, and here's two winners. One guy, we'll call him Chris cuz his name is Chris, writes to me a couple times, things are cool, and he suggests to meet up Sunday. I write back ok, and he -- removes his profile. So then he writes to me on Monday, and then when I ask him why his profile is down. Here is what he says:
>How was your w/e?>>I hid my profile for a few reasons, and will do that whenever I feel>I'm too busy to make any new contacts. Match is so time consuming that>I just need to take a break from making any new 'aquaintances', and>pursue the ones I have already made...such as you. I'm busy at work>right now, so I'm just pacing myself.... I cancelled my home phone>and don't have email at home right now until I get my cable modem>going, so I don't spend much time on match anyways. That's why I never>saw your response on Fri, and just got it this morning.>>Gotta run, maybe we can catch up tonight.>>Chris>>Second email-------->>PS...I really just didn't want my wife to see it up there.... ha ha ha!
How's that for honesty from a married guy?
Here's the next winner. He's just so positive about me and life that it is SO attractive.
My time on Match is about to end tomorrow after 6 months. So I onlyhave one more day of pain! (smile) I think I am going to take a breakfrom Match for a few months until maybe the New Year unless I getmarried or die or both. Before my current time is up, I thought that Iwould just say what the hell and go ahead and write those in myFavorites. You did not hear me, but I just said what the hell.There is nothing not to like about your profile, and I do not see youbeing around Match very long. There are several things in particularthat I like. If you are interested in communicating, it would be greatto hear from you. I am not sure if you will have access to my photosafter you read this, so email me if you like at ...
Take care, David.
Wow, girls, get in line for these winners.
Some days it's great to be single.
So I'm on match, and here's two winners. One guy, we'll call him Chris cuz his name is Chris, writes to me a couple times, things are cool, and he suggests to meet up Sunday. I write back ok, and he -- removes his profile. So then he writes to me on Monday, and then when I ask him why his profile is down. Here is what he says:
>How was your w/e?>>I hid my profile for a few reasons, and will do that whenever I feel>I'm too busy to make any new contacts. Match is so time consuming that>I just need to take a break from making any new 'aquaintances', and>pursue the ones I have already made...such as you. I'm busy at work>right now, so I'm just pacing myself.... I cancelled my home phone>and don't have email at home right now until I get my cable modem>going, so I don't spend much time on match anyways. That's why I never>saw your response on Fri, and just got it this morning.>>Gotta run, maybe we can catch up tonight.>>Chris>>Second email-------->>PS...I really just didn't want my wife to see it up there.... ha ha ha!
How's that for honesty from a married guy?
Here's the next winner. He's just so positive about me and life that it is SO attractive.
My time on Match is about to end tomorrow after 6 months. So I onlyhave one more day of pain! (smile) I think I am going to take a breakfrom Match for a few months until maybe the New Year unless I getmarried or die or both. Before my current time is up, I thought that Iwould just say what the hell and go ahead and write those in myFavorites. You did not hear me, but I just said what the hell.There is nothing not to like about your profile, and I do not see youbeing around Match very long. There are several things in particularthat I like. If you are interested in communicating, it would be greatto hear from you. I am not sure if you will have access to my photosafter you read this, so email me if you like at ...
Take care, David.
Wow, girls, get in line for these winners.
Some days it's great to be single.
October 07, 2006
hot boy...
so went out last night to hear a friends' band play, and there was this HOT guy there in suit and tie. mmm...he came over and talked. told me all kinds of stories about traveling (mongolia, eating goats etc.) and cool stuff. he's an engineer, a military brat, and fun. we have a lot in common and it was awesome. he even broke horses in CA. he so clearly wanted to make out, even pulled out the gum and was talking with his arm around me like 3 inches from my face. but not being a trashy bar girl, i figured if he wasn't buying me drinks & asking me out, he wasn't gettin' shit.
anyhow, i'm busy being hit on by him, and he's asking me what i'm doing this weekend, but he's avoiding me q's so i know he's got a girl and doing what my exhole was doing on me for the past few months. anyhow, had a great time dancing with him and generally being hit on until he got my number.
i gave it to him but wrote "don't call me if you've got a girl." his closer was "you should come over to lowell and we can meet up and hear this band play in this club." like right.
anyhow, i'm hot. feels good. even though it takes more a**holes to make me feel this way, at least they're good for something.
this guy's friend had just got married and was grabbing us girls. damn. i could have married that!
sometimes life just keeps getting better and better. right now is one of those moments. :)
so went out last night to hear a friends' band play, and there was this HOT guy there in suit and tie. mmm...he came over and talked. told me all kinds of stories about traveling (mongolia, eating goats etc.) and cool stuff. he's an engineer, a military brat, and fun. we have a lot in common and it was awesome. he even broke horses in CA. he so clearly wanted to make out, even pulled out the gum and was talking with his arm around me like 3 inches from my face. but not being a trashy bar girl, i figured if he wasn't buying me drinks & asking me out, he wasn't gettin' shit.
anyhow, i'm busy being hit on by him, and he's asking me what i'm doing this weekend, but he's avoiding me q's so i know he's got a girl and doing what my exhole was doing on me for the past few months. anyhow, had a great time dancing with him and generally being hit on until he got my number.
i gave it to him but wrote "don't call me if you've got a girl." his closer was "you should come over to lowell and we can meet up and hear this band play in this club." like right.
anyhow, i'm hot. feels good. even though it takes more a**holes to make me feel this way, at least they're good for something.
this guy's friend had just got married and was grabbing us girls. damn. i could have married that!
sometimes life just keeps getting better and better. right now is one of those moments. :)
September 30, 2006
April 23, 2006
waiting to exhale
ok, i know i haven't written for a while. but i've been kinda thinking this current relationship, like all my others, would have some sort of short-term limit & just crash and burn. but here we are, after my birthday party last night. and my boy showed up early to the party, brought me a dozen red roses (v nice from xpensive florist), gave me a luxury day planner as a gift, gave me a sweet card, and generally was just awesome. i mention all these things because the other guys that busted up, didn't give me anything for my b-day in some cases, forgot about it, or whatnot.
so now it looks like i have a genuine relationship. oh, and i forgot the last thing. he came home with me to find "getting to i do" on my bed, obviously being read, and didn't leave immediately. lol.
ok, so now phase 2 commences. it's been six months with boy, and now i'm trying to make the transition from single girl to couple girl. and it's wierd b/c my single girlfriends are now treating me different. i'm sure i'm treating them dif too, but gees, this is harder than it looks. i don't want to lose them.
wierd when you become a couple something has to go. oh well, hopefully it'll just get better. i'll keep you posted, now that i can...
exhale.
ok, i know i haven't written for a while. but i've been kinda thinking this current relationship, like all my others, would have some sort of short-term limit & just crash and burn. but here we are, after my birthday party last night. and my boy showed up early to the party, brought me a dozen red roses (v nice from xpensive florist), gave me a luxury day planner as a gift, gave me a sweet card, and generally was just awesome. i mention all these things because the other guys that busted up, didn't give me anything for my b-day in some cases, forgot about it, or whatnot.
so now it looks like i have a genuine relationship. oh, and i forgot the last thing. he came home with me to find "getting to i do" on my bed, obviously being read, and didn't leave immediately. lol.
ok, so now phase 2 commences. it's been six months with boy, and now i'm trying to make the transition from single girl to couple girl. and it's wierd b/c my single girlfriends are now treating me different. i'm sure i'm treating them dif too, but gees, this is harder than it looks. i don't want to lose them.
wierd when you become a couple something has to go. oh well, hopefully it'll just get better. i'll keep you posted, now that i can...
exhale.
April 01, 2006
February 10, 2006
November 25, 2005
November 06, 2005
Loser
i went on another internet date the other night with "take me off the shelf" from yahoo personals. i don't usually bash people by name, but ladies, this boy is married. he's in the process of getting a divorce, so he says, but who can believe anything after one lie?
i actually liked the guy & it pretty much sucks. i thought maybe i'd just missed the part on his profile that says separated. guess not. there wasn't a part that said that. so pretty much he wasted my time.
advice to all: ask the obvious questions online. how would i have found out that TMOFS was married? except that i asked? were you married? UHHHH. are you married now? UHHH. hello. gees. f** loser.
luckily i finally got smart and this time we really met for coffee. at starbucks. so there was NO way it could transition into a meal.
my last dates were pretty wierd. there was "you have such beautiful skin" guy. no seriously. like 5 times. one of my friends at work said to me, ever heard of silence of the lambs? ha.
who before that? i don't remember. i'm sure i will. oh, yes, and recently i met up with my favorite ex-boyfriend again that i periodically love to hate. i've finally decided, yes, finally, that he is a) not interested, b) too busy or c) likes to drive me insane. since neither of the above options are good, i'll settle for d) buh-bye. which leaves me with several options, let's call them A, and B. two make several when you're single. ;)
A will potentially turn into something besides short conversations, and B could morph into something beyond making out every so often. of course their identity is strictly a secret, and B isn't supposed to exist, but sometimes life just IS that way.
if my infamous ex of the who? paragraph returns from his workaholism, he will make C. but until then, i'm just doing fun things like building my nest, with big-ticket item purchases of...silverware. specifically gorham tulip frosted. mmmmmmmm. goes good with my famous apple pie. speaking of which...this is apple season, where all good girl's attention turns from boys to apples. as it should be. until the snow falls & skiing takes over.
i just wonder, when i have kids (sometime in the next 2-3 years) what will i think of doing? no more apple pies, skiing, and dates. will it just be bottles? ugh. i hope i don't start writing about which brand of bottles is best. unless they're designer brand, intended to match my outfit. yeah, i really am not writing this...
i went on another internet date the other night with "take me off the shelf" from yahoo personals. i don't usually bash people by name, but ladies, this boy is married. he's in the process of getting a divorce, so he says, but who can believe anything after one lie?
i actually liked the guy & it pretty much sucks. i thought maybe i'd just missed the part on his profile that says separated. guess not. there wasn't a part that said that. so pretty much he wasted my time.
advice to all: ask the obvious questions online. how would i have found out that TMOFS was married? except that i asked? were you married? UHHHH. are you married now? UHHH. hello. gees. f** loser.
luckily i finally got smart and this time we really met for coffee. at starbucks. so there was NO way it could transition into a meal.
my last dates were pretty wierd. there was "you have such beautiful skin" guy. no seriously. like 5 times. one of my friends at work said to me, ever heard of silence of the lambs? ha.
who before that? i don't remember. i'm sure i will. oh, yes, and recently i met up with my favorite ex-boyfriend again that i periodically love to hate. i've finally decided, yes, finally, that he is a) not interested, b) too busy or c) likes to drive me insane. since neither of the above options are good, i'll settle for d) buh-bye. which leaves me with several options, let's call them A, and B. two make several when you're single. ;)
A will potentially turn into something besides short conversations, and B could morph into something beyond making out every so often. of course their identity is strictly a secret, and B isn't supposed to exist, but sometimes life just IS that way.
if my infamous ex of the who? paragraph returns from his workaholism, he will make C. but until then, i'm just doing fun things like building my nest, with big-ticket item purchases of...silverware. specifically gorham tulip frosted. mmmmmmmm. goes good with my famous apple pie. speaking of which...this is apple season, where all good girl's attention turns from boys to apples. as it should be. until the snow falls & skiing takes over.
i just wonder, when i have kids (sometime in the next 2-3 years) what will i think of doing? no more apple pies, skiing, and dates. will it just be bottles? ugh. i hope i don't start writing about which brand of bottles is best. unless they're designer brand, intended to match my outfit. yeah, i really am not writing this...
July 28, 2005
can't "shout" it out
there are some relationships that just get so icky you can't wash the bad out of them. especially if one person wants to resolve & the other doesn't. you get so angry you can't be nice without being barby (not as in doll) even if you don't mean to. the relationship just gets so full of fear and anger and without ventilation it just becomes methane. then of course when it gets so combustable the person with the most fear shuts off the person with the most anger & it all goes up in smoke.
the sad thing is you can both really like each other but not get through. i just don't know what to do but walk away. which makes the fearful person even more fearful. but of course they project that back onto you.
so both of you are the bad guy, there is no good guy and you sure as hell can't fix it.
unresolvable relationships piss me off. i'm forever trying to fix them, but sometimes you have to just admit, the other person just doesn't want them fixed.
wish i knew why.
there are some relationships that just get so icky you can't wash the bad out of them. especially if one person wants to resolve & the other doesn't. you get so angry you can't be nice without being barby (not as in doll) even if you don't mean to. the relationship just gets so full of fear and anger and without ventilation it just becomes methane. then of course when it gets so combustable the person with the most fear shuts off the person with the most anger & it all goes up in smoke.
the sad thing is you can both really like each other but not get through. i just don't know what to do but walk away. which makes the fearful person even more fearful. but of course they project that back onto you.
so both of you are the bad guy, there is no good guy and you sure as hell can't fix it.
unresolvable relationships piss me off. i'm forever trying to fix them, but sometimes you have to just admit, the other person just doesn't want them fixed.
wish i knew why.
"he loves me..."
something there is about flowers that just sinks down into a woman's soul & makes her feel loved all over. exponential returns when they're from a guy.
some men get the results, even though they don't get the reason women love flowers.
i like those guys. especially cuz i love the flowers.
thanks, j.
something there is about flowers that just sinks down into a woman's soul & makes her feel loved all over. exponential returns when they're from a guy.
some men get the results, even though they don't get the reason women love flowers.
i like those guys. especially cuz i love the flowers.
thanks, j.