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i'm feeling gobble gobble-y. happy t-day everyone!

just got the shopping done and didn't have to wait in line at the store for more than 2 minutes. wow. great staffing.

so update on events.

i don't remember where i left off anymore!

sax boy is still in my life. he's turned into a fill-in guy, which is just great. you can read between the lines on that | | lol. and a great friend who gives me advice on other guys. who can ask for more from a friend. a full-service package, lol.

romantically, i met this Iraqi guy that i really liked online (28) and we dated for a bit. i had to shift it to friends however, due to a number of things that i won't elaborate on. he doesn't like that idea. but he just texted happy t-day. and asked me who i'm spending the day with. i haven't answered yet...

...because...

i'm spending it with the guy i met the night that mr. iraqi wouldn't go out. yes, he wouldn't go out on halloween so i went out dressed as a black widow and picked up some prey. or rather he picked me up. he's indian and i don't even know how old. i'm afraid to ask. he looks like, early 20s. oh well.

so i'm treading air because i know since he's from a wealthy family, the oldest son, super smart, and younger that there is no chance of anything. however. i really like. really.

and he texted me every day when i was on vacation in hawaii...unlike mr. iraqi who said he missed me but said hello only once or twice.

so mr. smartguy which is what i'm gonna call the latest guy is very interactive. did i mention smart. cute. and some other things which again, i won't elaborate on, but which this time are very good. lol.

dear diary i'm nervous. spending t-day with anyone is an interesting event. i just met this guy. i've seen him how many times, 3? 2? and so we'll see how things go with him, his sister & her boyfriend.

i've said directly that i can't imagine that he'd want a long-term anything with me considering everything (have you ever seen an indian guy with a white woman? i haven't.) but i am still really enjoying him and miss his company when i don't hear from him. and he seems to handle me well. which is half of the battle, lol. i'm not that easy to get along with.

however, i'm finding that when the guy treats me well, i'm remarkably good-natured. it's when i feel i'm mistreated that i get grouchy and the fights start. like when mr. iraqi kicked me out of his bed. and told me i couldn't spend the night. no drama there. i just said sweetly, well, THIS hasn't happened before. and thought to myself, and it won't AGAIN...

yeah. that was the last time i went over there. we're just friends now, thank you very much.

oh well. i am so not sure what's going on with this. but it seems as fast as i tell my friends i met someone, it's over. this probably will be too. and not just for his reasons, whatever they might be.

i just went through the whole agonizing decision not to have kids so even the thought of that fills me with dread. a guy would have to talk super hard to convince me now to think about kids. odd how things change.

well, dear diary, i'll be back. i can't even say anymore i hope this guy lasts, because no one does. but i'll tell you a little secret: he is nice, and smart, and cute, and good in bed.

so there, i'm at last finding the things i want. all in a cute little unavailable package.

i will say though that he tells me i get him to talk about himself like nobody else has. he's said that a couple times. so i guess i'm doing something right. so at least i suppose when we walk away (which in my case tends to be within 6 weeks) we will still respect each other & have given each other something.

me, i hope i get many happy hours in bed.

not sleeping.

:)