housecleaning
well i've started kicking guys out of my life again that ignore me. jack is back called me & i yelled at him about la. he didn't intend to offend me, but oh, well, he did. he says he's not going anywhere so we'll see whassup with that.
i took mr. big & mr. military off my facebook profile. & told them why were they around?
i am so sick of putting up with this unreliability maybe i want you maybe i don't crap. don't want me, so go.
that said. i had a good date last night with internet guy. a comedian. and the leader of the meetup group texted me to invite me out tonite.
so i have new men. i just wish the old ones would work. dammit. i don't like losing people.
November 15, 2008
November 12, 2008
funny
so the guy in the picture grabbing my thighs is the leader of a group i go out with in the area. he has actually been good for me in a few ways.
after the first time i went out, i wrote him about the halloween party, which i went to with his group. he gave me his cell # then said don't give it out, women stalk me.
then he proceeded to stalk ME.
lol.
not really. just kept calling. i wrote back the first time saying i'd like to hang with the group, no pressure. he called back to tell me he got the message but was calling anyway.
ohhh.
so now i know how it feels like to have someone just a little too interested in you!! this is what i have been doing wrong with guys i like. being just a little too interested. yeah, it tends to make people back off.
i do really like mr. thigh-man. he is cool. but i like to take time to get to know people. a LOT of time. eons. forever. infinity.
don't know if he's up for waiting..... that ...................longggggggggggggggg
so the guy in the picture grabbing my thighs is the leader of a group i go out with in the area. he has actually been good for me in a few ways.
after the first time i went out, i wrote him about the halloween party, which i went to with his group. he gave me his cell # then said don't give it out, women stalk me.
then he proceeded to stalk ME.
lol.
not really. just kept calling. i wrote back the first time saying i'd like to hang with the group, no pressure. he called back to tell me he got the message but was calling anyway.
ohhh.
so now i know how it feels like to have someone just a little too interested in you!! this is what i have been doing wrong with guys i like. being just a little too interested. yeah, it tends to make people back off.
i do really like mr. thigh-man. he is cool. but i like to take time to get to know people. a LOT of time. eons. forever. infinity.
don't know if he's up for waiting..... that ...................longggggggggggggggg
dependability 1
i was wondering over the past few days what would happen if i called mr. big in case of an emergency. would he answer? would he be there for me? i realized this is a qualification i have for all the men in my life and somehow he escaped taking this test.
i have never even considered whether or not he would be there for me, probably because i have been too focused on meeting HIS standards.
so i decided to ask him. now this is pretty revolutionary for me. i am really enjoying trying new things though. i mean if he doesn't want to be a dependable man in my life, shouldn't i know this? and if he doesn't want to be there for me, why do i want him around?
i've always considered him a plaything. never taken him very seriously. never even considered that he is a man that takes care of people, why not me.
he has not been responsive to my requests for help in the past (computer stuff) or the lag time has been weeks. but given my new standards - aka that he respond to my communications, i think it is fair to up the ante.
if he is not even a friend, why should i even consider him for more?
funny how long it takes to realize these things...
i was wondering over the past few days what would happen if i called mr. big in case of an emergency. would he answer? would he be there for me? i realized this is a qualification i have for all the men in my life and somehow he escaped taking this test.
i have never even considered whether or not he would be there for me, probably because i have been too focused on meeting HIS standards.
so i decided to ask him. now this is pretty revolutionary for me. i am really enjoying trying new things though. i mean if he doesn't want to be a dependable man in my life, shouldn't i know this? and if he doesn't want to be there for me, why do i want him around?
i've always considered him a plaything. never taken him very seriously. never even considered that he is a man that takes care of people, why not me.
he has not been responsive to my requests for help in the past (computer stuff) or the lag time has been weeks. but given my new standards - aka that he respond to my communications, i think it is fair to up the ante.
if he is not even a friend, why should i even consider him for more?
funny how long it takes to realize these things...
time warp
it is the wierdest thing. time just seems to speed up after i see guys i like & i get all anxious & think i'll never hear from them again.
and then i do a reality check - like, when did i talk to them last? & in the case of mr. big it was only ..... 5 days ago.
gasp.
it feels like 5 months.
5 days. that's nothing. that's not enough time for anyone to miss anyone. for any new news to transpire. unless it's critical developments (like my company being sold!)
damn time warp.
john gray writes about how when people are uncertain time speeds up for women & slows down for men. clearly this is the case. ugh.
i need to unwarp my speed.
it is the wierdest thing. time just seems to speed up after i see guys i like & i get all anxious & think i'll never hear from them again.
and then i do a reality check - like, when did i talk to them last? & in the case of mr. big it was only ..... 5 days ago.
gasp.
it feels like 5 months.
5 days. that's nothing. that's not enough time for anyone to miss anyone. for any new news to transpire. unless it's critical developments (like my company being sold!)
damn time warp.
john gray writes about how when people are uncertain time speeds up for women & slows down for men. clearly this is the case. ugh.
i need to unwarp my speed.
November 11, 2008
November 10, 2008
imagine...there is a way from slavery to the oval office...
...imagine if you can...
can you even imagine what must be going through barak's mind as he steps foot inside the oval office as the first black president ever?
i'm sure i can't. but i'm trying.
it must be one of the most moving moments in the history of the U.S.
...imagine if you can...
can you even imagine what must be going through barak's mind as he steps foot inside the oval office as the first black president ever?
i'm sure i can't. but i'm trying.
it must be one of the most moving moments in the history of the U.S.
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i went on a good date last night. another online thingy. but my super-screening abilities are really working out well. i'm meeting better guys. i mean, i'm like a single-nazi. in fact, i just wrote a guy asking if he was indeed single. (he wanted to play pool.) i said i tended to get really annoyed with guys that showed up still in relationships. that i tended to beat them with the cue stick. (big super smiley evil face)
but i liked this guy. we'll call him bedford, cuz he lives there. i'm not sure if i'll see him again though. that's a ways away. and he kept fishing about to find something we had in common. no sorry, i don't bike. i don't like burning quads....music is ok. do i go to concerts much? not that much. how about sport? yeah, playoffs.
i realized this is what guys screen for. things in common.
it's why mr. big didn't think we should hang out the first time around. he might still think that. we don't have anything in common.
now see i look at it like this, if i like you, i can do your stuff with you. guys don't. they are like, do you do this ALREADY? if not, they're not gonna try to change us.
very practical. dammit.
i went through my usual comparing date to mr. big, since he's my current crush. i hate that bit of the date. where you always wish you were on a date with your real interest. bah humbug.
until he's really interested back i should can his ass. & not even think about it anymore. however, he does have a cute ass though. hmmmmmm.
ok, back to life, back to reality.
in other news, i am going to count the days of last communication with mr. big. i have to just GO AWAY for him to miss me. he can't keep missing me if i keep showing up, duh. this is another thing guys have to do. miss us. they have to figure out, if i miss her, i like her. if i don't, i don't.
so i'm trying trying tryyyyyyyyyying to just not be clingy or contactive or anything else that would interrupt the missing cycle.
sigh. why is waiting around such hard work. i feel like i'm a relationship potatoe. i just have to sit around on MY cute little tuschie & wait for these damn guys to miss me. bother.
in the meantime, i guess i'll just have to play with all the other boyz in the neighborhood. [fake sigh]
i went on a good date last night. another online thingy. but my super-screening abilities are really working out well. i'm meeting better guys. i mean, i'm like a single-nazi. in fact, i just wrote a guy asking if he was indeed single. (he wanted to play pool.) i said i tended to get really annoyed with guys that showed up still in relationships. that i tended to beat them with the cue stick. (big super smiley evil face)
but i liked this guy. we'll call him bedford, cuz he lives there. i'm not sure if i'll see him again though. that's a ways away. and he kept fishing about to find something we had in common. no sorry, i don't bike. i don't like burning quads....music is ok. do i go to concerts much? not that much. how about sport? yeah, playoffs.
i realized this is what guys screen for. things in common.
it's why mr. big didn't think we should hang out the first time around. he might still think that. we don't have anything in common.
now see i look at it like this, if i like you, i can do your stuff with you. guys don't. they are like, do you do this ALREADY? if not, they're not gonna try to change us.
very practical. dammit.
i went through my usual comparing date to mr. big, since he's my current crush. i hate that bit of the date. where you always wish you were on a date with your real interest. bah humbug.
until he's really interested back i should can his ass. & not even think about it anymore. however, he does have a cute ass though. hmmmmmm.
ok, back to life, back to reality.
in other news, i am going to count the days of last communication with mr. big. i have to just GO AWAY for him to miss me. he can't keep missing me if i keep showing up, duh. this is another thing guys have to do. miss us. they have to figure out, if i miss her, i like her. if i don't, i don't.
so i'm trying trying tryyyyyyyyyying to just not be clingy or contactive or anything else that would interrupt the missing cycle.
sigh. why is waiting around such hard work. i feel like i'm a relationship potatoe. i just have to sit around on MY cute little tuschie & wait for these damn guys to miss me. bother.
in the meantime, i guess i'll just have to play with all the other boyz in the neighborhood. [fake sigh]