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i went on a good date last night. another online thingy. but my super-screening abilities are really working out well. i'm meeting better guys. i mean, i'm like a single-nazi. in fact, i just wrote a guy asking if he was indeed single. (he wanted to play pool.) i said i tended to get really annoyed with guys that showed up still in relationships. that i tended to beat them with the cue stick. (big super smiley evil face)

but i liked this guy. we'll call him bedford, cuz he lives there. i'm not sure if i'll see him again though. that's a ways away. and he kept fishing about to find something we had in common. no sorry, i don't bike. i don't like burning quads....music is ok. do i go to concerts much? not that much. how about sport? yeah, playoffs.

i realized this is what guys screen for. things in common.

it's why mr. big didn't think we should hang out the first time around. he might still think that. we don't have anything in common.

now see i look at it like this, if i like you, i can do your stuff with you. guys don't. they are like, do you do this ALREADY? if not, they're not gonna try to change us.

very practical. dammit.

i went through my usual comparing date to mr. big, since he's my current crush. i hate that bit of the date. where you always wish you were on a date with your real interest. bah humbug.

until he's really interested back i should can his ass. & not even think about it anymore. however, he does have a cute ass though. hmmmmmm.

ok, back to life, back to reality.

in other news, i am going to count the days of last communication with mr. big. i have to just GO AWAY for him to miss me. he can't keep missing me if i keep showing up, duh. this is another thing guys have to do. miss us. they have to figure out, if i miss her, i like her. if i don't, i don't.

so i'm trying trying tryyyyyyyyyying to just not be clingy or contactive or anything else that would interrupt the missing cycle.

sigh. why is waiting around such hard work. i feel like i'm a relationship potatoe. i just have to sit around on MY cute little tuschie & wait for these damn guys to miss me. bother.

in the meantime, i guess i'll just have to play with all the other boyz in the neighborhood. [fake sigh]