true blue
so the ex i said goodbye to didn't want to hear it. what is it about men that they need women to put their foot down sometimes before they decide she's really special? or is it the putting down of the foot that is a turn-on? i dunno.
he agreed to comply to my terms for dealing with me and is coming to visit. he says. i'll keep you posted...
meanwhile, my sister has a visitor from canada. a cute guy who just arrived via taxi to go to church with her. i hope they like each other. gees, i've never had a guy from the internet come from another country to visit. and this guy is good -- got his own hotel room (of course) and found his way over to pick her up just like a gentleman. he's even driving. yes, i hope it works out.
funny how life sometimes comes in twos. funny how men work. i still haven't figured it out, however i'm starting to.
one thing i know: men can't fall in love with you unless there is a you to fall in love with. maybe that's the key. just be you and the man who loves that version of you will go crazy over it. after seeing women most of my life that tried to modify themselves to their man, this is a radical concept. but hey. wasn't luther radical. and look what he did!
September 04, 2004
September 03, 2004
parting is such bitter nastiness
i've said this b4, but one of the suckiest things about being single is saying goodbye. especially to your exes who you know and love and fight with. sometimes you just have to realize no matter how far you've come personally in life, that other person hasn't come there with you. he has his own agenda and timeline which is lightyears away from yours, which includes babies somewhere in the near future. his fear is so thick you pop it like a balloon. and so you have to, achingly, say Goodbye with a capital G.
i still wait for the day when i am settled down and will not have to lose my men one by one like i did my father. until then, i suppose i will continue to bitch and moan about the nastiness of dating, where you can get just as emotionally involved (perhaps more) than married, but without the protection.
i've said this b4, but one of the suckiest things about being single is saying goodbye. especially to your exes who you know and love and fight with. sometimes you just have to realize no matter how far you've come personally in life, that other person hasn't come there with you. he has his own agenda and timeline which is lightyears away from yours, which includes babies somewhere in the near future. his fear is so thick you pop it like a balloon. and so you have to, achingly, say Goodbye with a capital G.
i still wait for the day when i am settled down and will not have to lose my men one by one like i did my father. until then, i suppose i will continue to bitch and moan about the nastiness of dating, where you can get just as emotionally involved (perhaps more) than married, but without the protection.