parting is such bitter nastiness

i've said this b4, but one of the suckiest things about being single is saying goodbye. especially to your exes who you know and love and fight with. sometimes you just have to realize no matter how far you've come personally in life, that other person hasn't come there with you. he has his own agenda and timeline which is lightyears away from yours, which includes babies somewhere in the near future. his fear is so thick you pop it like a balloon. and so you have to, achingly, say Goodbye with a capital G.

i still wait for the day when i am settled down and will not have to lose my men one by one like i did my father. until then, i suppose i will continue to bitch and moan about the nastiness of dating, where you can get just as emotionally involved (perhaps more) than married, but without the protection.