a sense of mystery

i wish i could tell you what i'm doing this summer. but i can't. a woman has to have a sense of mystery about her, and it would ruin all the fun if everyone knew what i was doing. although it would be fun to write about it. suffice it to say, i will be having a very fun summer.

the one thing that i will say is that i'm going to china for 10 days on a concert tour. not featuring me per se, but i will be part of the entourage and performing again. on said tour might be one of my exes, a fact which does not greatly displease me as i don't want to date him again, nor which does please me either as i just don't want to be bothered having him either interact with me or not interact with me. neither of which will be pleasant. him having broken up with me makes it better. one can always play the victim, whether one feels like it or not and it is better than feeling guilty. which he feels none of i'm sure, nor should he. the only thing wrong with the breakup was the way it was done, not the fact that it was done. however since i was his first gfriend, one can't fault him all that bad for it. the only thing he should have known...you don't break up with a girl & then expect to spend the night on her couch as usual. said girl should have thrown his a** out on the street, but sometimes having a heart is just stupid, but it happens. occasionally in me i'm told. the only important thing about him going is that i don't want to get back together again & so it shouldn't bother me. ha. watch this one unfold with more drama than i think. he is currently dating someone who is quite beautiful (good taste he has) but as i hear from one of her exes, not especially well-endowed in the gray matter area.

speaking of which, we weren't, did you know that men prefer women with big busts to during a bust economy, and women with small ones during a boom? the fun things you learn from the india times.

along another line, a rant, of which source i will not ID. one remembers at times that attractiveness is a double-edged sword. it cuts all ways. perhaps it's better though for attractive people to be bitchy. i sure am. i mean if people were both good looking AND nice, what would happen in the world. one has to fend off all the hangers on that will diminish, wear down or distract from one's beauty.

so i'm off with my new pedicure and tanned & worked out self to a busy summer of mysterious happenings of which i'm sure you'll hear obliquely because of course, i like to write about dating affairs whether or not i'm supposed to, given the readership of this happy blog. ;)