can't "shout" it out

there are some relationships that just get so icky you can't wash the bad out of them. especially if one person wants to resolve & the other doesn't. you get so angry you can't be nice without being barby (not as in doll) even if you don't mean to. the relationship just gets so full of fear and anger and without ventilation it just becomes methane. then of course when it gets so combustable the person with the most fear shuts off the person with the most anger & it all goes up in smoke.

the sad thing is you can both really like each other but not get through. i just don't know what to do but walk away. which makes the fearful person even more fearful. but of course they project that back onto you.

so both of you are the bad guy, there is no good guy and you sure as hell can't fix it.

unresolvable relationships piss me off. i'm forever trying to fix them, but sometimes you have to just admit, the other person just doesn't want them fixed.

wish i knew why.