crushed

in an odd turn of events, i am completely crushed on this kid who told me that his dream - at 12 - was to have me have a crush on him.

he's not a kid anymore, he's taller than me & infinitely more successful on the violin, now a 3-rd chair for a major symphony. tall, fun, cute, kissable. just super cool.

and i made his dream come true.

how funny is that.

so now about me. how do i find this guy in real life? i mean, someone else? he just broke up with his girlfriend who is 5 years younger than me because she was older than him & he wasn't ready to settle down. so it's not like he's an option. but i want somebody like him.

warm, friendly, cute, successful, sweet, fun, attractive, great personality, well-traveled, should i go on? i mean, i can't even imagine how hard it was for this girl to be broken up with. ouch.

oh well, i'll get over it in a few days. i don't know what to do though about the fact that this is the type of guy i want? he told me himself to give guys like him a chance, that i need to raise my standards. yeah. sure. happy to.

where are they?