of course

my cap now wants to talk. he didn't come back on his own of course. i asked him for directions somewhere. & then when he gasp actually got my message (his excuse for not meeting up most of the time) i texted a short & sexy 'splanation about what kind of raincheck i was looking for last weekend. duh. then he says he wants to talk. of course.

but about what, i can't imagine. i let him know that i didn't want a conversation like last time where i ended up crying.

i just can't seem to let him go. so maybe we'll just have a fwb while i date other guys. which is what we were doing before he got pissy with me.

he has never yet said happy birthday to me & here it is a month later. i think he doesn't care about me. which is what i said last weekend. he apparently wants to EXPLAIN how much he does. right. actions buddy, actions.

so did i tell you? last weekend was the one where 3 guys made me cry. 2 criticized me, and one just blew me off (my cap) to meet with his friends instead. i called my supercute and smart half-neice who said, the ones who criticized you just like you. they either can't get you or you won't go out with them so their ego is responding. yup. pretty much it, from the context.

then my cat attacked me. he was pissed that i brought him inside. i now am letting him out on his own & he is much more loving now.

anyway, it has been a very frustrating week. it's taken me all week long to get over the 3 men & a mean kitty.

last night went on 2nd date with new guy i'm not sure about. we'll call him mr. meetup, cuz he leads a meetup group in the area.

i like mr. meetup but i'm not sure. the good things are that we're intellectually compatible and i tended to go on and on a bit, which is unusual for me. his voice though, i dunno. i'm huge on voices. i love a sexy voice. something big about that.

we'll see. i'll def meet again. at this point the fact that i'm not sure is probably a sign there is potential, lol. guys that i'm attracted to seem to be, uh, not good guys. so there you have it.

why i'm truly single, lol.