hmmm

well, i have had a lot going on lately. i mean a lot of guys. i started meeting up with ones on POF and then closed my account. some nice guys, but i'm tired already of hooking up.

the combination of sexy & smart & nice is just so hard to find. it seems most women i know settle for smart & nice. some of them them have affairs. i dunno, i never though it prudent to settle. i knew years ago that if i married a successful workaholic guy i'd have an affair. and if i married a guy that wasn't smart enough i'd want someone else.

i'm reminded lately of when i was 6 and went around telling everyone i had 6 boyfriends. in my head i did too. i even remember some of their names. one was 11 and we went around holding hands. it dawned on me that my preference for being single and playing the field probably started about then...

i'm still back and forthing with mr. sax player, i don't remember what i called him before. he's bitter and hurt and likeable and commitmentphobic, preferring to find everything wrong with me than to date me. oh well.

today i finally said i wanted to move on and not be friends since i liked him. he is resisting that too, doesn't want to be "banned" from seeing me. well, how about seeing me then? duh.

all a negotiation process with some people. so many objections to overcome. yawn.

oh well. off to a client meeting...i mean dinner & drinks, yea.

:)