happy new year!

i haven't written for a while. i've had a tough time i guess. but things are getting better - so i'm back!

in summary.

i'm still with the pseudo-boyfriend. we are doing good. i have less questions about our future than i did in the past, so i am happy about that! we have maintained our flexible relationship and that is still working for both of us. that means, we can see other people if we want, but it's don't ask don't tell.

he doesn't care if he sees other people or not (meaning he prefers not to), i prefer to keep the option open.

this type of relationship is interesting, i will say. i have never done it before by choice, instead being subjected to it against my will by guys i liked who wanted to keep dating other people. so it took a lot of courage to embark on, and a lot of careful phrasing to get my point across.

but a few weeks ago my guy told me he really is happy with how things are. and that means the world to me. the other part of the world - is that i am also happy with how things are. i have the freedom to appreciate and love him, without feeling trapped. and i can also go see other people if i have needs that are not getting met. which i think happens with everyone, since no one person meets everyone's needs.

but that's happening less and less, since he is becoming a better relationship partner...

so that is how things are right now.

now if we could just get rid of some of this snow...! ;)