reconciliation

i've been trying for months to reconcile things with my last ex. both in my head & in reality.

a few days ago i finally left him a voicemail telling him exactly that - and tonite he called.

it's the oddest thing. sometimes it takes you just forever to figure out what your objective is or why you're doing something. but then if you can verbalize it, people (especially guys) know what to do with it.

how wierd. it's so much easier to just ask for things rather than to keep trying to get them without asking.

why have i wasted so many years beating around the bush with people when i could have just said what i wanted? ayiyi.

maybe because it's hard to be sexy and honest at the same time. but i guess sometimes the stars align...