and we have...NOT reached our destination. or any for that matter...

just when i think i've gotten somewhere, i find myself two steps back. my frustration with men continues. i wonder if it will ever end. i think not.

so the online guy that i spent the 4th with didn't show. just in case, i texted him a week later (yesterday, showing remarkable restraint for me) saying i enjoyed hanging out with him. he responded immediately that he felt the same, would love to see me again, and he couldn't wait to get off the dating site. so i invited him to the tall ships yesterday. he sent a nice response, baby shower, gig he is playing, he could try to get out of it. i said, nah good to keep your gigs have fun.

nothing since.

so unless he is unseasonably busy, nothing is going to come of this guy.

in the meantime, the cute (27 YO) german friend of my friend seems to like me. he's been at about 3 things that i've done with my friend lately and he is new to town. he went with me to see the tall ships again. and i am very amused by his stories. he's well-traveled and interesting and likes to talk. i like to listen, so that works fine. he's also asking a lot of questions about me which leads me to believe he likes me.

when i asked my friend about him a few days ago, she said oh no, he's too young for you. yes, he even exceeds my 10-year limit. so i didn't even consider him more than a friend. but i'm curious. he mentioned visiting the aquarium about 4 times and i think he wanted me to say i'd go with him. so i said i would. (he's a diver.)

i guess you just go with what IS sometimes, rather than what you WISH would be. all the time i was with him i was thinking about the other guy & wondering if he'd show up again.

but oh well. i really am wondering why i can't seem to be in a r-ship so at this point, i'm not sure i want to be so picky.

life is sure strange. for me, anyway...