scared, boo (hoo)

i just had a chat with one of my childhood classmates. who i haven't talked to since. & he was advising me to take it slow with my doc.

ok, NOW i'm depressed.

i thought i was. bother.

now i'm scared from that. in addition to my own overwhelming fear.

i'm already getting to the attachment stage which is just uncomfortable sticky goo for me. i don't like missing anyone. it's actually like being hungry in a really yucky way. your stomach hurts all over & you are cranky & bother.

did i say that.

urgh. as if i need anyone to tell me to be more careful. i am the queen of careful. some call it - bitter.