here's what i blog about when it's not about boyz

well i just finished getting ready for the client dinner tonite & the conference today & tomorrow. it's my first conference that i'm chairing - actually co-chairing now - and am nervous. not so much even for who will be there but for measuring up to my own impossible-to-meet standards.

i have always been a perfectionist which leads to excellence in performance, but really takes it out of me. i mean crazy stage fright. a few years ago i finally heard about beta blockers, which i wish i'd known about when i was a teenager. i might have kept performing violin concertos instead of stopping from the high level of angst i always felt. BBs are wonderful and effective. they don't mess with your head, but they control the anxiety.

my way of managing anxiety is to prepare for stuff in advance. therefore by 10:45 on sunday i'm all ready for tonite & tomorrow. now i can return to my regularly scheduled programming.

ah the relief.