so saddened...

by the deaths of ed mcmahon, farrah fawcett and michael jackson. michael's nanny was my college class mate and friend on facebook, but she unfriended me, so i sent regards via a message. poor thing.

we weren't close, and i suspect i was not conservative enough for her tastes, but hopefully it was another reason. i don't know.

in any case, i had an odd thought today that i am getting a tiny little glimpse of what my 101 year old grandma felt like. she told me once when she was 100 years old probably, that nobody she grew up with or new when she was young was still alive, except for one friend. to watch a lifetime of people die, while you live must be a form of torture.

this is why god ordained that when sin entered the world, we should die. can you imagine living forever with sin and death? it is just awful. i know sometimes that when i am in a lot of pain and depressed that i don't want to live anymore, and i understand how welcome death is sometimes. so much so that you can now go to die in the state of michigan by choice.

and this is a blessing to some.