how do they do it?

those people in relationships? how do they get in them?!

i'm at that uncomfortable not-sure-what-we're-doing-but-i'm-acting-like-it's-going-somewhere phase. with mr. india, who is going to counsel a friend today whose parents want him to break off his engagement.

exactly the reason i'm hesitant to date mr. india in the first place. but then this is after...i'm already addicted.

urgh.

since i can't talk myself into dating him, logically, i'm trying to talk myself out of it instead.

but then he just shows up sweet & nice & i lose it.

fortunately all the guys in the past have been good training for this & i am actually able to maintain my self-confidence. or working on it.

but it's tough. self-confidence in uncertainty is most important - and most difficult.