energy

i just had lunch, 2nd date, with a guy i met online. it completely sucked the energy out of me. i feel like somebody pulled the plug & i have no energy left.

that sucks.

i guess i shouldn't meet up again.

part of the reason it was so exhausting i think was because he didn't ask anything about me. other than what i was doing for halloween/the weekend. that was it.

he told me during lunch too that he had weighted 450 pounds for years & had just lost the weight 5 years ago. i guess that's why he's not the most suave dater. i don't really mind that, but there is no energy radiating from him at all.

when i met him at the door there wasn't a sparky hello. the most smile i got out of him was when he hugged me good bye.

he wants to meet again & i said ok. i feel bad. but i can't. i just don't have energy to spare.

like i said, i feel bad. but you shouldn't feel bad for the people you date. they chose their lives & if it's different from yours, well, that's their choice.

now how do i get all this energy back? i will need a lot of it for tonite if i'm going to that halloween party with people i don't even know. THAT takes a lot of energy.

to quote pooh, bother.