melt-down

last night i had a complete melt-down on the way back from my friend's Cabi clothing show. i just cried buckets.

dunno if it was being around all these women with kids/family - well, obviously that's what it was.

i was like why didn't my life turn out this way? being single at this age is so NOT what i intended! plus - it doesn't look like the outlook will improve anytime soon.

i seem only to be interested, as i have said a few times, in guys who like yet more space than i. which doesn't lend itself to any sort of movement in the direction of even a committed relationship. in fact, i'm moving AWAY from that. i am much more enjoying have 2 or 3 guys.

is that wierd? i'm turning into a bachelor! oh gees.

but then why am i crying about it?

girls are wierd.