callin' a spade a spade

well, i called mr. big on his disrespect of me, aka i'm good enough to screw around with but not important enough to respond to afterwards when i try to communicate. i said i was not a one night stand & asked him to find a solution that works for both of us.

my guess is that means he's outta here faster than a speeding bullet b/c now i have created drama. but since i'm already pissed, whatever.

i didn't want to make an ultimatum or whine. i just said it like i saw it. it IS disrespectful & i deserve more.

i didn't think ignoring him back would particularly solve anything. and my anxiety was just too high to live like that anymore. i'm not the sorta girl that can put up with that. or wants to.

so i guess i should print out my calendars & start my 30 days of no contact like we have broken up. for sure he will run for the hills for long enough to see if i follow or not - or he will just decide we're right back where we were when we dated & he's not up for actually having a real live relationship with me.

in which case, it's better to call it now.

ugh.

oh well. i provided the best solution i could. which was for HIM to come up with a solution. he knows what he wants, he knows what i want. if he can't come up with something workable for both of us, then there is no solution.

besides, this lets him fully control the outcome so he doesn't feel like i'm manipulating him. it's his choice.

ok, off to print my calendar.

did i say ugh?

damn sexy boyz.