the age of loneliness

i think we're just at that point. we're so insulated in our worlds and separated from the people in them that we all are seeking some sort of connection.

and while technology fosters that, it can also excerbate it. strange.

i've learned lately that in order to feel connected with my boyz, i can text them innocuous things & they respond. i feel connected, we don't have drama (cuz i'm not creating a real reason to interact like i used to) & everyone feels loved.

problem is - it doesn't replace face to face. although it feels like. so we short ourselves the face time for technology & there we are. somehow lonelier than before.

i don't know if i believe this. i mean, i can't even spell lonely and all its aliterations. or that word either. but it's a theory.

however it happens though, it is. so i've learned to live with it. i have start my own "open flirt" text messages with my favorite guys. something they can respond to that is cute & sexy & that gives me something to look forward to with response.

their responses are interesting. one of my boyz (mr. ny, yes, i still want him around) responds right away. in fact, he sometimes calls in return. mr. big takes a day or a few & but generally comes through with a one-upper. as in a face-to-face invitation. nice. i guess this is my '00 way of asking guys out. well, that & going online.

i made a new profile online. this time i blocked everyone and his brother. mostly the brothers. the married hook-up brothers. maybe i will actually meet a date that is - shock & awe - not married.

this is a very random bacardi & mango freeze inspired post. but hey. it is one!

back to the sox...more to come on love & such. cuz that's what i do.